Just thought of a question. As I may have mentioned, my grandfather was a bully. So were his sons. I witnessed so much pain and violence at their hands, to women and animals.

The “unrelenting” part of your comment stuck with me. I do also have a switch that can be thrown. And it has been. Once when some men hurled homophobic slurs at a gay man on the street at night, once when I saw a man on the street getting violent with his girlfriend, and countless times online. I sense that I could fly into an unrelenting rage. It would be because some awful bully is trying to cause pain and suffering to me or someone else. I have a high tolerance myself but less for others. If the switch is thrown, I feel oblivious to pain. I have no fear. Nothing can be said to hurt me. I feel like I could destroy them with my words, too.

I wonder… what would happen if my anti-bully rage met with a narcissist’s ego-protection rage? Would I be killed? Because I don’t think there’s anything you could say to hurt my ego enough, so I wouldn’t back down. If someone is a bully, I just think they’re awful enough that I don’t value their opinion or judgment at all, so I feel unaffected. Plus, I think some autistic dissociation takes place. I just want them stopped. So, do you think that if the bully is a narcissist, that my life would be in danger? When our unrelenting energies clash? (I’ve wondered this about someone in my life who I think is a covert and manipulative narcissist. I’ve wondered if my life could be in danger.)